In a world where information is all around us and everyone and their mothers are using Twitter, Facebook and the likes to communicate, why would my thoughts matter at all? Why put them out there in this oversaturated world? Why not keep them to myself?
Well, I don’t think this blog might actually appeal to a big audience or anyone at all. And I don’t expect it to become a success anyhow. Writing should give me a purpose. Ever since I was retired from my job I have struggled to find my place in life. My OCD hasn’t been helpful either. I forced myself into a daily routine to which I adhere to most of the time. It gives me the illusion of actually living a life and I didn’t question it until now.
But it is a shallow excistence and my brain slowly rots away. I need to get out of this trap and try to achieve some resemblance of living my life without the constraints of my OCD. And writing this blog in English instead of my native language German might fill the empty void.
Whether I will be able to fill this blog with anything worth talking about remains to be seen. Naming this blog after the album Train of Thought by Dream Theater is no coincidence either. On my daily walks with my dog Dexter I often come across interesting references of songs or albums while I actually think in english in my head. I also mumble to myself or Dexter in english during these walks. If anyone would observe this….they would think I am mad, which I am actually.
So maybe you join me again on my daily road to madness . See you soon 🙂